115 calories for a huge bag.
The spicy powder on it is an appetite suppressant.
A bag lasts me two hours.
It tastes delicious.
If you live near an Asian grocery store, it's time to buy shredded squid.
Friday, 3 June 2011
Thursday, 2 June 2011
A mention for those who read my blogger.
http://schizo-skank.tumblr.com/
Everyone's saying I've lost weight but I don't see it. Today I ate 400 calories on accident. I just couldn't find anything I wanted to eat so I didn't bother trying to eat more, if that makes any sense. I didn't even gorge myself after dinner like I sometimes do.
This might be the start of something good. I felt a bit sick after dinner, but once it cleared up I didn't feel any worse than I do on my 600-700 days.
I should be 120 lbs. by August if I don't fast, or by the middle of July if I do.
That's a BMI of 18.8.
From there I'll go to 110 if I'm lucky.
Everyone's saying I've lost weight but I don't see it. Today I ate 400 calories on accident. I just couldn't find anything I wanted to eat so I didn't bother trying to eat more, if that makes any sense. I didn't even gorge myself after dinner like I sometimes do.
This might be the start of something good. I felt a bit sick after dinner, but once it cleared up I didn't feel any worse than I do on my 600-700 days.
I should be 120 lbs. by August if I don't fast, or by the middle of July if I do.
That's a BMI of 18.8.
From there I'll go to 110 if I'm lucky.
Wednesday, 25 May 2011
The Best Thinspo Ever
I watched this about 10 times because I liked the song. In all seriousness, though, unless you want to have four tits, and have to pull your panties up to your belly button, stay strong, man.
Sunday, 15 May 2011
Today
Today I'm going to go swimming.
So far I've eaten a low-sugar protein bar, a small peach, a cracker with some peanut butter on it, and a bottle of 0-calorie Vitamin Tea.
That amounts to about 300 calories. I have one week left of school. I'm going to start off slow, eating 600-900 calories every day. I really can't find much of a reason to eat any more. I don't feel any different than I did eating 2000+ calories a day a month ago. I even feel just as full.
Last week I accidentally ate only about 400 calories, went for a walk to the comic book store, and by the time I was there I almost fainted. I can only imagine how fun it will be to swim for two hours like this. I'll get used to it.
I know nobody reads this right now, but I wish someone would tell me how to avoid starvation mode. Hell, I wish I just had an ana buddy.
I'm going to try for a liquid fast once school goes out. Never done that before, so it'll probably kill me, but whatever. I heard a week of liquid fast can eat away 10 pounds, but I'm afraid if I do it too early it'll slow down my metabolism to the point where I can't lose any more weight, and I'll be stuck in the high 130s. I might do the fast once I'm down to 130 pounds sometime in July, since 120 pounds is pretty close to my goal weight.
Protip for whoever might be reading this: Miss Meringue's sugarfree meringue cookies. One entire container, the size of an ice cream tub, is 80 calories. If you need to binge, binge on that. I think meringue is pretty nasty though, so I just have them ready for an emergency.
Also, does anyone else have a local low-carb grocery store? They have 0-calorie peanut butter and jelly at mine. I'm pretty sure it'd give me the shits though, so idk.
So far I've eaten a low-sugar protein bar, a small peach, a cracker with some peanut butter on it, and a bottle of 0-calorie Vitamin Tea.
That amounts to about 300 calories. I have one week left of school. I'm going to start off slow, eating 600-900 calories every day. I really can't find much of a reason to eat any more. I don't feel any different than I did eating 2000+ calories a day a month ago. I even feel just as full.
Last week I accidentally ate only about 400 calories, went for a walk to the comic book store, and by the time I was there I almost fainted. I can only imagine how fun it will be to swim for two hours like this. I'll get used to it.
I know nobody reads this right now, but I wish someone would tell me how to avoid starvation mode. Hell, I wish I just had an ana buddy.
I'm going to try for a liquid fast once school goes out. Never done that before, so it'll probably kill me, but whatever. I heard a week of liquid fast can eat away 10 pounds, but I'm afraid if I do it too early it'll slow down my metabolism to the point where I can't lose any more weight, and I'll be stuck in the high 130s. I might do the fast once I'm down to 130 pounds sometime in July, since 120 pounds is pretty close to my goal weight.
Protip for whoever might be reading this: Miss Meringue's sugarfree meringue cookies. One entire container, the size of an ice cream tub, is 80 calories. If you need to binge, binge on that. I think meringue is pretty nasty though, so I just have them ready for an emergency.
Also, does anyone else have a local low-carb grocery store? They have 0-calorie peanut butter and jelly at mine. I'm pretty sure it'd give me the shits though, so idk.
Saturday, 14 May 2011
So.
I've decided to try pro-ana again. I've done this several times before. It's not that I can't take the starvation, it's that people always get in my way. I get off school a month early due to my depression, though, so that means I'm unsupervised for a month and don't have to eat until dinner. My dad forces me to eat when he notices I'm missing periods.
My stats:
I am somewhere between 150 and 160 pounds.
I am somewhere between 5'6 and 5'8.
My highest weight was about 180 pounds.
My lowest weight was about 130 pounds.
My goal weight is 115-125 pounds.
I have tons of size 3-5 pants lying around the house that I bought two years ago. I was one size away.
I am now much bigger, since I've gone through a good deal of puberty since then.
I do not want to be super-skinny, I've just been legitimately fat all my life and ana is more satisfying to me than dieting. I know a good deal of tricks, I don't get hungry often, I'm determined.
I will destroy myself if it means I get out of this, if it means I can be beautiful.
More about me:
I have clinical depression that can cause psychosis.
I have a high IQ, surprisingly.
My sexuality is fluid, but it has leaned towards girls for the past few years.
I'm doing this for myself.
I use reverse thinspo more often than thinspo.
For those of you who started out average-weight: Having excess fat, like, huge amounts, feels DISGUSTING. There is nothing more disgusting than feeling your fat bulge out or wobble. There is nothing more disgusting than seeing that a pair of pants that fit comfortably cut your hips in half and great a giant muffin top.
My favourite band is Avenged Sevenfold. I like them, experimental bands, some riot grrl punk, some death metal, some grindcore, and some metalcore.
I make a lot of excuses for being fat.
I have tried to personify anorexia as "Ana", but it just doesn't work, so fuck her.
I used to play WoW a lot, but I haven't been doing that so much recently. I didn't want to have to leave for so long but people made me.
My dad won't buy me a scale until the end of June. The losertown calculator estimates I will be 135 pounds by then. Here's hoping.
Reverse thinspo:
My stats:
I am somewhere between 150 and 160 pounds.
I am somewhere between 5'6 and 5'8.
My highest weight was about 180 pounds.
My lowest weight was about 130 pounds.
My goal weight is 115-125 pounds.
I have tons of size 3-5 pants lying around the house that I bought two years ago. I was one size away.
I am now much bigger, since I've gone through a good deal of puberty since then.
I do not want to be super-skinny, I've just been legitimately fat all my life and ana is more satisfying to me than dieting. I know a good deal of tricks, I don't get hungry often, I'm determined.
I will destroy myself if it means I get out of this, if it means I can be beautiful.
More about me:
I have clinical depression that can cause psychosis.
I have a high IQ, surprisingly.
My sexuality is fluid, but it has leaned towards girls for the past few years.
I'm doing this for myself.
I use reverse thinspo more often than thinspo.
For those of you who started out average-weight: Having excess fat, like, huge amounts, feels DISGUSTING. There is nothing more disgusting than feeling your fat bulge out or wobble. There is nothing more disgusting than seeing that a pair of pants that fit comfortably cut your hips in half and great a giant muffin top.
My favourite band is Avenged Sevenfold. I like them, experimental bands, some riot grrl punk, some death metal, some grindcore, and some metalcore.
I make a lot of excuses for being fat.
I have tried to personify anorexia as "Ana", but it just doesn't work, so fuck her.
I used to play WoW a lot, but I haven't been doing that so much recently. I didn't want to have to leave for so long but people made me.
My dad won't buy me a scale until the end of June. The losertown calculator estimates I will be 135 pounds by then. Here's hoping.
Reverse thinspo:
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